Thoughts

Two blog posts in one day? I must have a lot on my mind. I titled the previous post Thoughts and Happenings.  But then I realized, it was mostly just happenings.  So here are some thoughts:

Do you see this glowing, tan, skinny, beautiful brunette? She is about to make a comeback.  Trent and I sat down to map out our new budget once we move, and I was pretty adamant about getting a gym membership, personal trainer, nutritionist, weight loss system SOMETHING!

Of course, that's not necessarily a need.  It's more of want. But my birthday is coming up. So bring on my wants and this is at the top of the list.
But then in that same thought, I think to myself, I have to be okay with the right now. I have to be okay that my body is not the same.  That it has created two little humans.  It has carried the stress of providing for a family.  It has been the body of service.  And that changes a person sometimes. I think sometimes you have to come to terms with yourself and realize what you can/can't handle. And to be honest, I don't think it is healthy to add one more concern/stress to our hectic lives.  Because right now, just making dinner is a victory!
Also, has anyone read the interview with Sister Renlund, the newly called apostle Elder Renlund's wife?  This is the link: http://www.mormonwomen.com/2010/05/12/just-call-me-ruth/  
It has been on my heart lately.  I have talked a lot about it with Trent. I guess in the end what I have learned the most is personal revelation is necessary.  I think that is all I can say about it.  After reading her article, it has pushed me more to ask the Lord where should I be and what does he have in store. And to be happy with the plan he has for me instead of trying to create a new one.